I love blogging. I love the idea of blogging. I'm constantly thinking in blog mode. Taking a picture and thinking of the perfect caption. Thinking of an occasion and knowing it must be blogged about.
There are so many fantastic blogs out there. Seriously. So. Many. I think I have been suffering from blog intimidation. I worry that my photos aren't good enough. I want them bigger and better and have no idea how to do that. My layout is terrible. I have no idea how to change that either. I have vowed to do the research. Yeah -- hasn't happened. I have postponed blog after blog after blog because I've yet to do the previous 25 blogs before that.
When I don't blog, I avoid reading blogs. That makes me sad because I know I'm missing out. I have blogger's guilt.....yes, yes -- silly me. No more blaming the clock, the camera, or the computer (that will be a hard one) -- I
am was my biggest blogging enemy.
So -- all of that to say this. One last explanation. One last apology. If anyone cares to comment (and I always welcome comments) about this or that -- THIS should be a post I can refer them to.
I apologize because.....
I blog like I think. I place grammar rules aside (and I do I have the utmost respect for the English language, but come on people, I love my dashes and unruly commas and exclamations AND the beloved smiley face. One might think I'm a 16 year-old girl based on my punctuation at times....). Yep -- I pretty much break them all.
My brain goes in a thousand different directions throughout the day. It's not always going to make sense. If you have a question -- ask. I MIGHT have an explanation.
Chronological order. Love the thought -- can't get it together. As many times as I've dreamed of having this darn blog in perfect order -- well, as I said before -- I will keep putting if off, putting it off. So I'm done stressing about it. I have journals, pictures, blogs.....I'm hoping my girls will have some sort of documentation to represent their whole lives. It's just going to take quite a bit of detective work to put it all together.
Pictures. Oh how I LOVE pictures. The Kodak moment. An instant frozen in time. The precious moment you never want to forget. Well, I've come to realize it's not always going to look perfect (well, for me anyway. I'm not talking to all you perfect bloggers out there). It may be blurry, or tiny or sideways.....but, it will be documented. Once again -- any comments and tips for improvement are ALWAYS welcomed!
SO -- my point: I'm challenging myself to get back to blogging. Get back to doing what I enjoy. To stop stressing about the minor details and MAKE IT HAPPEN. Recent events (experienced or witnessed) in life have brought to my attention that words and pictures are so very important. Documentation. It may be someone's one and only way of remembering a magical moment, a life-changing event, a loved one.
There will be days I'm ecstatic. Days I'm sad. Days I sound ungrateful. Please know that I am so eternally grateful for all that God has blessed me with....I think I actually obsess about it. I am constantly looking at my girls and trying to remember the moment. Remember them in that moment. I think of my husband, my family, my friends.....I can't' slow down the hands of time enough.
I don't promise that there will never be periods of silence. Days, months.... it's happened before. I may stumble. I may fall. But, I'll get back up and keep on blogging.
So Cheers! Here's to the moment.